Monday, June 21, 2004
someday somehow i'm gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you wanna break away.
DA camp was alot more memorable than i expected. they've got the whole COMMUNITY! thing goin on. haha. but most importantly, i think i really felt myself falling in love with you all over again.
somehow, i guess we've really come full circle. maybe it was a mistake that i turned up for the camp. i have a weak spot for you and i always will. i can't hide that so i guess that explains my elaborate pretence? maybe i'm uncomfortable with the fact that i'd go to the ends of the earth for you.
to be honest (i know you dont trust me but i guess i owe you this much), it feels like i've scooped too much, WAY.TOO.MUCH, onto my platter and now i'm choking from all the beautiful food.
i am living proof that too much of a good thing can be deadly.
maybe walking alone is the route that we need to take for a while jus so we can both reconcile with ourselves, and all the hurt that we've been dealt with.
at the end of the day, i guess this really does hold true:
love is a many splinter'd thing.
i'm sorry for everything.
yesterday and the day before was in a word, magical. and i really thank you for that because you have no idea how much i missed that feeling of togetherness.
im sorry.
ily.
is it enough to love? is it enough to breathe?