Thursday, June 24, 2004
spaghetti sauce
it's always the little indulgences that make me feel better. for e.g. i scheduled my intensive shopping therapy sessions to mon, tues, wed of this wk (very addictive stuff). hence i am now relatively satisfied because i have not been thinking all that much about.. um, stuff.
shopping is such a no brainer. =p
len has also gone home. =( i hope she arrived safe, sound and with her knickers in one piece. =D REMEMBER!! BE GOOD. hee. i love the fact that my best friends are so gorgeous.(=
i have also been having really weird dreams. slightly disturbing but nonetheless they help me not to think about stuff. so yep. grateful. hmmm. especially vivid + ethereal was the one (two nights ago) when my grandmother (who passed away recently) came back to visit me. i was so overwhelmed; i've never seen my gramma this beautiful before..
i had raspberry ripple ice cream yesterday whilst waiting for the mechanic to come fix the car's punctured tire. i have missed how the flavours swirl around my tongue and trickle down my fingers.
need more tissue paper.
all i wanted was to retrieve a moment that had passed me by.
cardinal sin.
happy rest of the holidays, folks. <33
Monday, June 21, 2004
someday somehow i'm gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you wanna break away.
DA camp was alot more memorable than i expected. they've got the whole COMMUNITY! thing goin on. haha. but most importantly, i think i really felt myself falling in love with you all over again.
somehow, i guess we've really come full circle. maybe it was a mistake that i turned up for the camp. i have a weak spot for you and i always will. i can't hide that so i guess that explains my elaborate pretence? maybe i'm uncomfortable with the fact that i'd go to the ends of the earth for you.
to be honest (i know you dont trust me but i guess i owe you this much), it feels like i've scooped too much, WAY.TOO.MUCH, onto my platter and now i'm choking from all the beautiful food.
i am living proof that too much of a good thing can be deadly.
maybe walking alone is the route that we need to take for a while jus so we can both reconcile with ourselves, and all the hurt that we've been dealt with.
at the end of the day, i guess this really does hold true:
love is a many splinter'd thing.
i'm sorry for everything.
yesterday and the day before was in a word, magical. and i really thank you for that because you have no idea how much i missed that feeling of togetherness.
im sorry.
ily.
is it enough to love? is it enough to breathe?
Thursday, June 17, 2004
i think terence and i broke up for real today.
helen smells like sex. no. wait. she smells like she HAD sex. hahahahahhaa. I LOVE YOU.
i am delirious. watch me try to stop thinking about you.
SEX. mwaha.yum.(helen added that. =D I AM SOO HAPPY SHES HOOMMEE)
ily
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oneforeachletterofyrname.
gng out now.
we shall buy alkanols. hhaha.
Wednesday, June 09, 2004
i won't hide it.
today thoroughly SUCKED. i fought w my mom over the most fucking irritating lil things. lovely start to my day, really. (SHE STARTED IT.)
WHY IS SHE SO FCKING ANNOYING?! looking at her makes my blood boil. and she's probably right - i can easily replace her w an atm machine + driver. right now, i wish i could.
i want my dad back.
wtv.