Sunday, April 04, 2004
run [a w a y] with my [h e a r t]
somehow, i feel quite detached frm everything today. my only ray of sunshine: I MADE IT TO THE DEP INTERVIEWS! hehe. and so did my precious dteam mates: chere, mark n nalli. (hopefully suhas made it too. =>)
anyhow, STAGE IT! was a complete hit. => the sc choir alumni was so super sexay. heh. angie and i can go sit in a corner and nosebleed. lol.
** 30 mins later **
[ what wld it take it stop you frm being so aloof. ]
it gets too cold when i cant feel your presence. it's almost as though my heart decided to stop beating, except that it's taking me an enormous amount of effort to come to terms with that sinking reality. quite frankly, i dont really care about ANYTHING ELSE. i just want you.
//why do i wound myself upon the sharp merciless edges of the night?
for me, i'd do anything to have you beside me 24/7. so i can monitor your moods and hold you or at least attempt to wedge myself btwn you and your tempers. to try in with all my humble might to insatiate you. make you happy. i think tt //mitigating circumstances// shld jus FUCK OFF and get outta of my way; our way.
come back to me,
please.
otherwise,
for me, tonight, the night sky is shattered and the stars shiver in its expanse of cold, black steel.
too much emotion; i will be overwhelmed by my own inefficacy at expressing myself
except to simply
state:
i love you. for always.