Thursday, March 04, 2004
and it burns. consuming me like sacred fire;
snow on the sahara.
random blog-surfing makes you think too much. i dunno.. feeling weirded-out now and i dont like the thoughts that im harbouring. its starting to worry me that i may actually be SERIOUSLY considering this prospect. perhaps its sth that i shld've done a long time ago. perhaps this just isnt the best climate for this to carry on. perhaps i overlooked too much and so even when i found out about these things and thought to myself that maybe somehow **** could lead the way and cover up for our sake, maybe i was wrong.
maybe you're a lion. too strong and wild and beautiful for me to tame. when you look at me like that, i can almost feel myself buckle beneath the intensity of your gaze. sometimes, it makes me feel like succumbing to your every will, but on other days, i feel like i've failed you. i imagine your eyes to be liquid honey, warm and brown and sweet, a light hue of cobalt blue that hints of the sky that you never fail to keep in sight of. it feels like some part of me is continually choking back tears; reaching out, every bone in my broken body longing to ride upon the back of a majestic beast that's probably too legendary and mighty in all his ferocious glory. to feel the wind caress my tear-stained cheek as i lie upon your muscular back, gripping the coarse ends of your fur with my calloused fingers;
i know i love you.
and i know
that this
is
the only thing that's
right.