Sunday, February 15, 2004
falling again
first up: (i meant to say this yesterday, but i never found the time to.. and in any case, everyday will -be- this special as long as yr in love.(= ) HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!(*=
the perfect storm blew up in my face wednesday last. it's been a hellish 5 days and i have a very bad feeling that this is only the beginning.
that aside, im trying very hard to stirke a balance btwn work, play, and religion. my spirit has diffused into the atmosphere and my soul fled me no sooner had i opened a new can of worms. i dont know anything anymore. and considering that i've got a chem test tmr, not knowing anything is very dangerous indeed. =p. *SIGH* the main thing is: im trying to make (a series of?) life-changing(?) decision/s that im hoping will set things right again. its all a matter of perspective. and equilibrium. WHY THE FCK IS EVERYTHING SO BLOODY DELICATE?! nvm. did i mention that im trying very hard? its jus that i dont wanna live to regret anything..
to you. im so sorry that i have to put you through all this. i miss the way things used to be. but no matter what happens, your position in my heart (or whatever's left of it -_-") is irreplaceble. oh, and jus to let you know, the lily has made a home out of a little vase on my table. it's blooming quite nicely now and its releasing its spicey scent all over the place. i miss you. ily. *heart*