Saturday, August 30, 2003
i.hate.everything.about.you.(whydoiloveyou?)
im feeling fucking used. extremely screwed up. all the nice happy feelings frm yest have completely subsided.
this SUX.
i hate fighting with my mom, i hate receiving weird mails frm ppl telling me that im being used. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you.
hmm. yes this is complete angst. i feel like smoking. running away and never coming back. i wanna run to you. stab you then kill myself. (whoever you are.) fuck life fuck logic fuck respect. i dont wanna give a fucking damn.
i wanna live in a eutopia. i want to be strong. i want to be happy. i dont wanna be confused. i want someone to clear up the mess un-fog the haze. alternatively, dunking me into a tub of ice-cold water and leaving me to freeze to death sounds gd enough.
god, i really needta clear my head.
where are you now?